Me today – feelings of frustration and helplessness, small amount of despair, and quite a lot of anger.
When we moved into our house it was obvious that the fence needed replacing. It was falling down – partially because of rotted wood at the base of the posts, and partially because of a creeper that was slowly dragging it down. We had discussed replacing the fence on and off for months – one of the main reaons was a lack of privacy – for us, and our neighbours.
In December last year our neighbour popped over to ask if we had any objections to their plans for a pool – which would include the construction of a retaining wall on the fenceline, and a great big lovely fence. A fence! Whoo hoo! Bring it on and build it high!
Full steam ahead. Step 1 would be removal of fence in preparation for a new fence being erected within the week. Impossible you say – apparently not. Hurrah. 🙂
Delays. Black sand comes through every cranny under windows tightly closed. Washing is taken inside for months while the weather is gorgeous outside. Children are unable to play outside unsupervised because of sharp edges on concrete footings of temporary fencing. Our entire backyard, and indeed, the inside our house is visible to the street for months on end through our neighbours backyard, making mother anxious about who is watching us going about our happy lives. Walking naked from the bathroom to anywhere is completely impossible.
An entire summer is spent waiting…. 😦
Delays, suspected untruths. Delays, anxiety, frustration….
An entire autumn is spent waiting, getting progressively more angy about having to look at piles of rubbish around stalled construction. A child’s birthday party went ahead despite the embarassment to host. Our temporary fence is metal and wire and provides no screening you see.
Black plastic goes up to provide partial privacy in an attempt to make me feel better I suspect, and does nothing to bring back my usual patience, and sense of community spirit. I keep smiling and nodding and making understanding hmmms while the volcano bubbles.
And then, all of a sudden last week construction of the fence begins! 7 months after fence has come down. It goes up fast. It is beautiful! It is tall! We have privacy from our neighbours and the street! My heart soars. I feel as if a big black cloud has been lifted off my head and shoulders.
We have 2 full days of a fence.
Last night the overseer came to view the fence from our side. It is crooked. Uneven at the top. The boards are not at right angles to the ground. Ever the polite one, I smile and ask interested questions. Inside I am screaming I DON”T CARE. LEAVE IT THERE.!!!!! ‘Surely they won’t build it again?’ I politely enquire. ‘Why not?’ is the response. And indeed last night as twilight descended some palings were removed.
The black cloud descends………… It is heavy…………