big decisions

07May08

So today is Zara’s last day at creche…

I’ve felt this coming for quite a while now, and been fighting with myself.  I do believe the carers when they say she stops crying minutes after I leave.  I do believe that she benefits from the social interaction and being able to get messy with paint and playdough and sandpit activities.  I do believe in resilience and pushing through.  It is much easier for me to paint, and work and do all the things I need to do for myself and others in that day she is not by my side, but.

She is only 3.

She is easygoing, and no trouble.

She loves being with her mummy.

And I love being with her.

And that’s what it’s all about, when they are so little and still exploring who they are and what they need.

Last night, considering having to go she cried.  This morning as I packed her lunch she cried and said for the 100th time I don’t want to go to creche, I don’t like creche.  As we dropped her brother off at school and drove to the door she sobbed and sobbed, and if there wasn’t a ‘Farm show’ visiting today I wouldn’t have even walked through the gate.

I came home and cried, and wrote a letter.

Today is Zara’s last day at creche.


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  1. 1 kirsten on May 7, 2008 said:

    big decision but good for you (and zara).
    i know tom never enjoyed creche altho’ he attended literally for years.
    the very first day of kinder, he skipped through the doors with nary a backward glance! (such a different scenario to every creche drop-off… ;)
    so, i applaud you and hope you can enjoy the ‘extra’ time with zara. it certainly won’t be ‘wasted’ time. :)

  2. 2 Jo on May 7, 2008 said:

    you are such a good Mum… you know when to trust your gut! They are little for such a short time, and won’t necessarily want to hang out with Mum forever, so don’t we just have to enjoy it as much as we can while we can?…

    btw Congrats on your Canterbury sales, I knew you would do well, I just wish that I could have been the one with enough cash to buy one *sigh* one day…

  3. 3 danielsanger on May 7, 2008 said:

    Great you’ve trusted your instincts. I know there are the positives of creche that you listed, though following your gut is always the best choice :)

  4. 4 theoreticgal on May 7, 2008 said:

    Such a hard decision but you have to do what is going to work for you all as a family.
    They grow up so quickly.
    Enjoy your time together.

  5. 5 Catherine on May 7, 2008 said:

    I now have to kiss E good-bye in the morning before we get within sight of school, although J is still happy to have his kiss and cuddle inside the playground.

    Enjoy the time together while you can, it does vanish as quickly as the first Easter egg before breakfast ;)

    That is, unless you’re planning to have more ….. (kids, not eggs) ?

  6. 6 movinghands on May 8, 2008 said:

    It sounds like you made a good decision. I have my 3-year-old at home with me and her little sister for one more year, because I was not willing to have her go to pre-school five days a week for full days like most children here in Japan do, when the school year starts in April. The kids who turn four right away when that school year starts tend to handle it better than the ones who are barely three. But still, it is a lot for kids that young.

    Hope you enjoy your new schedule with Zara!

  7. 7 di on May 9, 2008 said:

    Ahhh, parenting throws up so many tough decisions. But it sounds like you’re making the right one. Enjoy your time exploring, learning and adventuring together.

  8. 8 catslye on May 13, 2008 said:

    good for you, and her, she and you will be better for this decision. life is short, we needn’t make it shorter by doing “what we’re suppose to”. :)

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